I usually don't care to impress someone. Or at least try not to. But... there is someone... that I wish I could impress. Not that I really want that person. I just... want them to like me. But I'm to shy to even get to know them/talk to them/ be their friend. And it would be awkward too. Someone I probably won't have time to be friends with. Someone I probably won't know for long. Someone I have "fantasies" about. Or at least I try not to have those thoughts. But... those thoughts may not acutally be copulating... they are thoughts I desire. They make me happy, sometimes... and sometimes they make me feel anxious.

I can't stop thinking about him. But "HE" is the token for me right now. He will help me stay encouraged and confident so I can try to do the right things for myself.

Life is just too wierd...